Preface

This book is not a doctrinal statement.

While it draws deeply from Orthodox Christian tradition, it does not seek to define what must be believed. Rather, it offers one man’s journey—through silence, through questions, through worship, through tears.

I do not see myself as having rejected the Christian faith I was given. Quite the opposite: I remain deeply grateful for it. If anything, this journey has been a kind of unfolding. A maturation. Not a replacement, but a deepening.

In the Orthodox Church, we tend to avoid defining too much with dogmatic finality. We believe the mystery of God is larger than our words, and we approach that mystery not with certainty, but with awe.

These chapters are offered not as teachings to be accepted, but as experiences to be received—prayerfully, slowly, and with a listening heart.

If they help you trust God more deeply, or question your fear more gently, then they have done their work.

“Theology is not what we say about God. It is what happens when we encounter Him.”